Even hell can get comfy once you’ve settled in

ive never been so nervous to tell someone im losing it. hes been so proud of me and i dont wanna let him down. i dont even know why im posting this on here, probably because no one pays any attention anyway and i need to write it down somewhere. i guess with it being 1:30am that reduces the amount of people that will see this too. whatever 

i keep writing text posts and deleting them because im not quite sure any of my followers are ready to hear what goes on in my head